![]() ![]() The video received an overwhelmingly positive response and this, in turn, made Cullan feel “really good”. I hold accountability for everything I've done.”Ĭullan described how he originally got a taste for talking about his addiction after seeing the response to an online video he recorded for a charity. It's part of my recovery and the way I look at things. There’s not many things I haven't been open about. He said that ahead of starting work on the podcast, he’d already made a ‘name for himself’ as a heroin addict in Cardiff. In hosting The Central Club, Cullan has had to open up about several dark points in his life - one example being his struggle with obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD). I was working hard and using every bit of penny I had.” A couple of thousand pounds on this is better than heroin. “Money never bothered me because I always looked at it like, it would’ve gone on heroin anyway. ![]() I've always cut corners in everything I've done in my life and when I started The Central Club I thought, if I’m going to do this then I’m going to do it properly. He can't kick a football but he’s got the best boots on. Joking, he said: “I've always been someone who used to laugh at the football player with all the gear but no idea. Whereas for most podcasts quality builds over time, Cullan stressed how he was determined to make a strong calibre of content from day one. People just need to have a bit more hope in life and it's quite cliche but it's never too late to change.”Ĭullan said he's always 'cut corners' in his life but with The Central Club, he wanted to do things differently (Image: WalesOnline/Rob Browne) If I told the version of me in 2017 what I’m doing now, he’d have never believed me. “If I could speak to that person from five years ago I don't think I would be the same. “Sometimes you have to stop whining about certain things and just crack on with it,” he added. Despite stressing that his mother and father “tried everything” to get him to change his ways, he said that ultimately he was the only person who could make a difference to his life. Speaking of that time, he said: “I remember sitting there and thinking, this is my life, I am now going to live the rest of my life a heroin addict and die a junkie.”Ĭullan cited three reasons for his addiction to drugs: mental health issues, the people he hung around with and bad timing. He then recalled how he started “spewing up and going to the toilet with diarrhoea”. There was something in my head that I couldn't come at peace with unless I used a substance.”ĭescribing his introduction to heroin Cullan, who is now a peer mentor at charity drug clinic Kaleidoscope, remembered waking up on the morning of his 19th birthday in a “real hot sweat”. “I used drugs to mask the way I was feeling and the things I was doing, i.e. “I knew I had a problem with drugs when I started using them on my own,” he said. ![]()
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